I think.
I was free-writing Ron/Ginny, as you do. I’m not going to share it since, well, they’re older and the dialogue is a bit more explicit than the platonic childhood scenes I’ve posted here.
…..okay, I’ll share just a short bit because it’s funny. As a warning, Ron is canonically a total guttermouth and I can’t deny him in fan fiction so there are a few curse words. Also, I seriously couldn’t care less about Hermione and making fun of Harry and Harry/Ginny gives me life. I can’t help it, it’s like a compulsion! So what I mean is, that kind of colours how I write this ship, ha ha.
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Ron couldn’t sleep.
He stared at the ceiling of his room, listening to Harry mutter incomprehensible, vaguely disturbing things in his sleep the way he did. He kept thinking back to earlier that day, about Harry in Ginny’s room, what Ginny had been trying to do. He knew he shouldn’t and he hated himself for it but he just — he couldn’t.
Ron glanced at Harry from the corner of his eyes. He was fast asleep, curled up underneath the blanket, his back to Ron. He hesitated for a moment and then he eased himself up, holding his breath as he snuck out of his room and downstairs.
He shuffled into the kitchen to get a glass of water when he noticed the door to the back garden was ajar, a mild wind drifting inside. Ron saw a glimpse of long red hair through the crack and paused abruptly, his chest going tight with too many conflicting emotions to name. And then, because he never could stop himself when it came to Ginny, he went to the door and stepped out.
She was sitting on the step, staring at the small dots of light floating in the air over the hedge. She looked small and unhappy and exhausted.
After a minute or two, she lowered her head and sighed. “What do you want from me, Ron?” She tilted her head, looking up at him. “I’m — I’m trying. I’m dating Harry like you wanted. I’m trying to make it work. And you just—”
“What, by trying to fuck him while everyone is in the house,” Ron blurted out angrily, reminded of that moment in the afternoon again, and immediately wished he could learn not to put his foot in his mouth.
Ginny flushed, embarrassed and guilty, but her eyes flashed dangerously. “That still doesn’t give you the right to butt in,” she said coldly. “And if you hadn’t—” She snapped her mouth shut before she could say more and looked away, her jaw clenched.
“It’s my fault now?” said Ron incredulously. “What did I do? I don’t remember telling you to fuck Harry when you’re not even together and everyone is in the fucking house.”
Ginny jerked up, pacing back and forth the cobblestoned path in whatever frustrated anger she’d been holding in. “What,” she snapped back. “So you can do whatever you want, you can have Hermione all over yourself, but I can’t even kiss the boy you wanted me to date?” she hissed, her voice shaking.
Ron felt himself go red, vaguely recalling Hermione throwing herself at him on the night they went to get Harry. Ginny stopped and looked at him, her eyes wide and pleading and desperate.
“What do you want, Ron? What… what am I supposed to do? What more can I do?”
Ron stared back at her, torn and pained and terrified. Ginny waited for him to say something but he couldn’t, at least not anything that wouldn’t be either damning or lying, his throat closed off. After a while, she huffed out a humourless laugh and put her face in her hands, her shoulders slumped.
“Forget it,” she said when she dropped her hands, sounding hollow, and moved to get past Ron inside.
Ron’s hand darted out without thought and grasped her wrist, holding on too tight. She frowned but before she could say anything, he started pulling her towards the gate and out to the grove by the river.
He let go of her wrist and paced back and forth before he stopped, his head tipped back to look up at the clear star-strewn sky. He took a few deep breaths and dragged both hands through his hair, all the while Ginny eyed him warily as if he’d gone mad. Ron felt mad, on the verge of something terrifying. “Okay,” he declared abruptly, and looked at her. “I’m gonna do something really selfish now. You can punch me or hex me if you want to.”
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I’m not sharing the awkward first/second kiss, though, ha ha. To be honest, I have way too much fun writing this little crackship for various reasons. Which is probably why free-writing it is so easy.
But anywhoo~ The important bit isn’t that I was free-writing Ron/Ginny, as you do. The important bit is this sentence, particularly the bolded part:
He hesitated for a moment and then he eased himself up, holding his breath as he snuck out of his room and downstairs.
This is a little embarrassing but I’ve tried writing this exact same sentence in that Tom/Hagrid fic that I will get to any day now. I tried writing it in a million different ways because I started doing that inner self-loathing thing until I had to stop lest I go mad.
But this time I just wrote it and kept going, and I — I honestly feel so happy. The magic of Ron/Ginny perhaps? My hilarious crackship, I have much fondness for you.
You know, there’s this poet who’s internet (in)famous for having written wincest (Sam/Dean from Supernatural). It would be hilarious if someday I’ll become the writer famous for writing Ron/Ginny, ha ha. Or I guess Cassandra Clare is already (in)famous for that but to be honest, I think this is a lie from people who dislike her and do that “oh my god, look at what a morally reprehensible ~sexual deviant~ she is for *checks notes* shipping fictional siblings fictionally!”
Because what you write and read sure determines what kind of person you are. I guess we should all just enjoy being terrorists, serial killers, genocidaires, etc too.
In other words for those who don’t get it: writing or reading about murders does not, in fact, make you a murderer. You’re welcome for this important life lesson. You can find them here for free.
The other progress I’ve made is that I finally sat down and wrote Tommy’s backstory for that Harry Potter rewrite that I will get to any day now. Well, okay, I already sort of started it and — it’s not giving me psychical damage yet? So should I feel relatively confident?
I have two problems regarding Tommy, though. The first one is that I wrote basically everything but what happened to him during the first war. Like, I honestly don’t know. I’m planning on keeping the Potters alive for this rewrite so I can’t exactly have the dude kill himself on a toddler. So I was thinking about it and then I thought, what if he just died? What if someone just got a lucky shot at him? It’s not as if it needs to be some significant thing? And then I need to figure out what happened to his corpse, ha ha. *despairs*
Another problem is that I’m planning on making that Tom/Hagrid AU a part of this rewrite. Because as far as I’m concerned, it’s practically canon, Rowling just didn’t even think to go there. But the problem is that I think the snake was stupid, okay? Like, I can’t even begin to explain how stupid the basilisk plotline was. But if there’s no snake, there’s no Tom/Hagrid AU. So I’m wondering if I can make the whole basilisk thing better somehow? Maybe Tommy just bred it himself? If the dude had ingenious dark powers, he should’ve done a bit more with them than just splitting his soul and killing himself on a moronic brat repeatedly? Or maybe he found it in the forest since there’s everything in that forest?
Or maybe I should just forgo the basilisk altogether and have Tommy attack people using his own powers? Wait, no, but then how would he frame Hagrid? No wonder I can’t get a start on this thing. *sighs*
So I guess that writing progress was one step forward and two steps backwards after all, ha ha. Whatever, I’m tagging it anyway because of ✧˖°.positive thinking.°˖✧.
Also, I’ve been thinking about those Tom/Hagrid and Ron/Ginny fics. They basically have no readers, at least readers who would comment. *side-eyes the mysterious 2000 hits on my only mature Ron/Ginny fic*
The thing is, with fan fiction you can post it while it’s still a work in progress. People usually do this to get feedback and comments and to keep their motivation going. But with these two ships, it’s basically pointless. So I need to practise keeping my motivation going by my lonesome.
And I think this is even more important for original fiction I want to write since I — don’t really have any writer buddies or someone who would read my stuff for me. And I can’t exactly post my original stuff as a work in progress online in the hopes of feedback and comments. I mean, I guess I can since I’m pretty sure there are sites for that but. I don’t know. Seems weird. I don’t mind posting the short writing exercises, though.
Never mind that I don’t want a repeat of Incandescent Snow that’s still! sitting unfinished. But hey, if things keep going well, I might be able to finish that ghost too.